I can feel my eyes getting heavy, sleep is pulling me in... It must be late I think. I pull on my night shirt and plug my phone into the charger. As the screen is illuminated, and I spot the time (9:18pm), I suddenly feel like a grandma.
Matt works earlier than me, so the jaw dropped shocked and sad expression on my face completely confuses him. I try to argue that it is TooOOooOOooOO EARLY FOR BED! He just yawns and cozies up into the blankets. I don't know why, I suddenly feel like I must stay awake longer, and of course wanting to stay awake I suddenly feel sleep's strong and enticing pull stronger by the minute.
I feel stuck in a rut dear reader.... This has less to do with my inability to make it to 10pm and more to do with time slipping by. It's like. Wake up, walk to work, work, walk home, make/eat dinner, enjoy small amount of couple time, go to bed. Where are all of the grown up adventures I was supposed to have? Okay, I am more of a home body, so maybe adventures aren't what I am missing. But my dosage of doodling, reading, and writing have been lessened.
When I feel this way, I generally pick up a pen or a book and set my self straight. But tonight I'm thinking about Halloween's approach and am looking for something autumn inspired. This time last year I was in Ashland, OR with the trees changing into brilliant Fall colors. It was easy to get inspired. I walk to work everyday and it's nice, but the beauty of my walk just doesn't measure up to the small town beauty I had enjoyed up North. Sometimes I really wish I had stuck it out there. That feeling has me wanting to take a trip to visit my cousin Avril (a truly remarkable and free-spirited woman). Maybe what I really miss is my girl time with her. Staying up late and talking about life experiences and lessons.
I made it past 10pm tonight, but now the pillow is calling me in. I will look for my Fall inspiration tomorrow even if I have to use Pinterest to find it! I am going to go join my husband now, because he's making sleep look super appealing (like a cat on a pile of freshly dried laundry :> )
