Doodler in Distress

     There is always more going on under the surface than meets the eye. It has been a particularly emotional, stressful, irritating week or two. Things that are bothersome have become a blur, and the points that were particularly happy and good really stand out like: my bedtime duets with Matt, Charley cracking up as I did head stands for her on the front lawn, doodling on the dry erase board, unwinding on my walks, volleyball, bowling, lunch at Pho 999, dinner at Stonefire, watching a French film with Matt, and oh yeah, the Kings winning the Stanley Cup. Things to change for the next week- because it's bound to have its up and downs too: less drinking (or removing alcohol from the picture altogether), drinking more water, less phone, more Matt time, and less strong language.
     Fortunately, if next week goes horribly wrong I will have more than a week of camping and good times to look forward to (at Hunington Lake, Sequoia, and hopefully Ashland, Oregon) and to undo the stress. Ultimately, my bad week is not all healed... I am holding on to the things that made me angry, and I don't think my Healing with the Fairies cards or the Yeah Yeah Yeahs are going to help me resolve them (... or will they? I dash to find the cards and turn on my music player, and it is in fact helping).

     Maybe sometimes the key to releasing yourself from whatever has tied your heart up into an emotional knot is to do what you love and truly be in the moment when you are doing it... you may have noticed via facebook how much attention the dry erase board has received from me recently.

    Maybe a camping trip is just what the doctor ordered, and that in the wilderness among all of the beautiful trees, in the quiet fresh air that can only be found when away from the city, in the realm of the fairies :), I will be able to let go of all of the little things... if that doesn't work I don't know what will.